went work and my supervisor on MC.. manage to cope with work and camp stuffs at the same time.. i hope i wun over use my brain power and it will still function normally.. because last night.. i couldnt think properly.. was too tired..

then went back school for our meeting.. last meeting before the camp.. and finalise many things.. yes.. its good to settle the things fast.. and it ended earlier than i expected.. which is good.. means i can come home earlier.. and i can rest longer after finishing my stuffs.. good!

i want to know that sentence stand for but i dowan to ask! but keep in control.. dun talk! it aint easy.. not to do the things u usually do and u will do.. and i wan to noe if the impression and thinking has changed? but i still dowan to ask.. so many things to noe yet dowan ask.. how stupid.. it could get stupider.. !!


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Monday, October 30, 2006

tired during work.. but lucky i did not oversleep in the morning and on the train.. hmm.. had been trying to keep myself very awake.. by going toilet and wash face.. go pantry take drinks and stuffs..

its still under control.. except for tt morning calls part.. i dowan to talk to her yet..

many things to do.. and i really appreciate the reminders and the scoldings and the urging me.. cos when i am doing it all alone.. i almost lost the direction to do.. and everyone is so busy..

veggied on 9:03:00 PM

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Sunday, October 29, 2006

juz came back from prep camp.. which started on friday night.. damn tired! after work and camp.. and lack of sleep.. i just realised i lost direction when working alone.. i need a lot of pple to discuss with me face to face.. and exchange opinions and so..

since the decision was made so long ago.. shall do the best and make is sucessful.. after that.. dunno wad will happen.. and dunno when will be the next decision.. and i finally understand how other feels about it.. and.. so many of them... as far as i remember.. 4 of them.. sad thing to know..

sigh! and i dowan to lose a good fren... i really dun.. all the things i had done before.. it may be very wrong.. but friendship is built over a period of times... hard for two to get along.. blah blah blah..

need to sleep early.. and i need a hair cut..

veggied on 6:51:00 PM

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Thursday, October 26, 2006

i blogged and the entry wasnt post.. nvm..

was saying.. work was busy! redoing the report i have done.. improving on it.. and when she told me the things i have to improve and i can add in to make it look better.. there was i thinking to myself.. how come i nv think of it.. or i was simply just lazy to do some thorough thinking.. hahaa..

prep camp tml and i am so scared.. nightwalk.. not scared of the walk but scared tt things may not go smoothly.. man made things.. but if things happen in the natural way.. there is nth i can do.. haha..

hm.. no more haze! and who shall we thanks.. haaa.. the clouds in the sky has collected water vapour from the sea which was evaporated by the sun.. and form cloud.. then it became heavy and it rain! hmm.. so who is the leading actor/actress.. haha.. rain? cloud? sky? sea? sun? or wad.. haha.. not forgetting veggie.. the poor victim being burned.. but.. veggie respire... and dunno how it help or wad la.. haha.. forgot all those plants science already.. crap!

veggied on 11:42:00 PM

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

work after holiday aint that good.. u have to do two reports for some.. and u have to update the figures of two days.. but i manage to finish everything on time.. just that went i was abt to leave.. kris called for me..

i am super duper tired.. cant slp last night.. dunno why.. and i slp all the way in the train at wake up occasionally to make sure i dun drool.. haha..

prep camp is this fri.. i got two weekends full.. means no going out so wun spend money.. but i noe it will be very tired.. very very tired..

finally.. it has been raining for two days.. haha.. i miss the rain!! rain! rain! oops.. looking out the pantry.. the view is so much clearer after yest rain.. and evening also had a rain.. so tml will be better..

veggied on 10:10:00 PM

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

selamat hari raya to my malay frenss.. farhan.. aminah.. blah blah blah and i couldnt think of more.. maybe this two are the ones i'm closer to..

i dowan to lose frens.. i may did things that disappoint u or not wad you like.. but.. i dunno wad to say..

sorry and thank you seems so useless..

veggied on 8:55:00 PM

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Monday, October 23, 2006

i blogged yesterday and i didnt noe where the entry went..

hmm.. finished reading the book 'rich dad poor dad'.. quite a good book to learn abt finance and money.. but its always easier to be said then done.. but we shall not follow wad we read.. cos wad is written can only be applied for a certain period of time and things do change as times pass.. so it depends on indiviual readers to absorb and apply to the real world in where we are and adapt as things change.. then it will be great..

another book to go.. and finance is so interesing..

i think i blogged some emo stuffs.. but i forgot wad it is alr.. and dun wish to rem..

i just feel so.. sorry..

veggied on 11:22:00 PM

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

ok.. i dunno how to be a good man.. a gentleman.. and a good fren.. and someone everyone will like..

maybe u will think wad u told me.. i will go tell pple abt EVERYTHING!.. maybe.. think abt it.. did u go tell others wad was meant to be a secret between us?

nah.. dun think so..

if u are successful in ur career.. u have lots of money.. but the way u deal with pple and ur fren sucks.. its no point.. so we ought to learn to handle frens and give good impression first..

veggied on 11:57:00 PM

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Friday, October 20, 2006

ok.. i am so packed wif work! and i have to work a lil overtime.. with no overtime pay.. anyway.. went topman during lunch and used the voucher.. bought boxer and a nice top to suit my formal clothings.. also dunno how to describe.. then after work was school! so tired now..

oh no.. i am loss of words again.. before i blog.. i have one whole long of things i wanna say.. but everything just went blank now!

veggied on 11:52:00 PM

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

more and more work to do.. making my day fufilling.. with no time to sit then and do nth.. every min... i noe there is something to do.. and i came back early from lunch.. to play spider solitaire.. tml is friday!! casual!! but long day.. got to go back school.. club commitment.. and i cant just enjoy myself when everyone is working hard for the camp.. i hope my activity will go well.. and everyone will enjoy and learn something from it.. anyway.. work was.. erm.. a lot.. and i dun like compliling daily news.. i dun mind the indicies but news.. its tedious.. bloomberg is still better.. haha! went off at 6 today.. with my another colleague.. from vietnam.. graduated in ntu.. although he cant speak good english.. not bad toking to him.. cos he shared abt the education future of where i can head to in maritime.. everyday is a learning day! and i totally agree.. studying is no use.. u mus go work and use it.. and apply it.. theory theory wun go far.. and for shipping.. we dun have to fight for rice bowls.. there are many pots of rice for you.. if you can take the pressure.. the stress.. then u will be able to eat the whole pot..

many things i wanna say here.. but when i blog.. i feel like blogging the happier stuffs.. maybe wait til one day.. when i really feel like.. i will.. but hopefully.. i dun have to write emo stuffs here or wad.. haha..

finished reading the book by FF.. and it really make me feel relieved being in this course.. wanted to chose nautical studies thinking it was fun exploring the world.. however.. he said tt now.. not much time to explore.. cos shore leave was short and the pay is ard the same as in shore.. where in shore.. u enjoy better.. no regrets for this course.. =))

lots of catching up to do with many pple.. but i just feel so.. reluctant to..
tired..

veggied on 7:44:00 PM

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

today.. more work to do.. kris gave me more things to do.. updating the figures for the new handysize.. and creating a chart worksheet for coal indices.. and correlation for indices.. hmm.. ended work at 6plus..

its good to have a kid.. good part is u can get leave cos of newborn kid.. how many days i dunno.. but seems a lot.. cos my colleagues.. taking almost a week leave now.. cos she has to clear it.. and her baby is like.. hmm.. not tt young anymore.. and i have to cover her job.. means.. more work.. and there is a risk of unable to finish work on time.. but it also make my day busy so i wun get so bored.. which is good..

hazy days.. with corrupted country having no control over burning.. and the sentosa IR is welcoming bids.. haha.. starcruise and genting combined.. haha.. genting coming over singapore.. bringing wad is up the moutain to spore.. haha.. making spore like genting now.. so many clouds.. but in fact.. its smoke la.. unhealthy!

yesterday is today memories.. and if it wasnt for yesterday.. you will not have today.. and wun have tt memories to look back.. but i noe.. with me ard.. i wun give you good memories worth looking back.. i only give nightmare!

veggied on 9:32:00 PM

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Friday, October 13, 2006

thursday after work.. went back to school again.. capt ball finals and i didnt have a chance to play again.. but i seriously enjoy playing vball with kim and jiawei.. all so good and fun! haha.. we were the interval performers.. =)) and the game ended very late and we went to eat very late too.. reach home at ard 1.. hmm.. last bus left..

today also went back school after work.. for some campsongs and nightwalk stuffs..

very very tired now!

veggied on 11:24:00 PM

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

when u r having weekend.. u wun look forward to monday.. and when u r in monday.. u look forward to wed.. and when u r in wed.. u look forward to fri.. and its weekend again.. every passes so fast..

went back school today.. SMAC captainball... didnt have chance to play.. but i know i am so noisy when they are playing.. very tired.. very long nv play bball.. and this time.. a bit competitive one.. haha.. run and run.. haha.. leg suan le..

going back tml.. =)

veggied on 11:27:00 PM

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Monday, October 09, 2006

drinking ban! fri night.. sat night.. sun night.. drink drink drink..

anyway.. sat was charlene 21st bday party at aranda country club.. by the swimming pool.. machiam like wedding like tt.. open the door. u reach the pool side.. then u go to the reception and sign the guest book.. and receive a chop that u r her guest.. then there was two rows of buffet.. and bartender providing free flow of beer and mocktails.. and chargable cocktails and chivas.. and there is also chocolate fondue.. hmm.. nice atmosphere i shall say.. then we stayed throughout the night.. played uno.. indian poker and i cheated.. haha.. i swop cards with sokyin! =X then we chat til i so so tired as i didnt have much slp after fri night.. plus the drinking.. now.. my absolut apeach is finished.. hmm.. then sunday morning.. went breakfast.. and chat chat.. and played a bit of mahjong then i went home.. then at night went paragon find gin.. then fen and xy came and we went to peixin 18th bday at afterfive pub in lavender.. haha.. her frens were there and can see she quite happy.. which is good.. and xy.. keep wanting to play dice.. then lose liao i drink for her.. haha.. and we often end up beside the pub tt 7-11.. buy snacks and stuffs.. haa.. reach home ard 12plus with the smoke smell.. eekss.. but the head was heavy and i slp straightaway after changing..

today woke up late but still manage to go to work on time.. with a heavy head.. and was tired.. busy monday.. with not much time to spare.. went raffles city walk walk after work.. the basement has many interesting things..

shall sleep early.. busy week ahead..

veggied on 10:23:00 PM

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Saturday, October 07, 2006

work yesteday was much diff from others.. cos i emailed my chartering manager, julian, about some things i dun understand.. then we went to training room to dicuss about it.. hmm.. and tt led me to many more questions and many of the things he said abt arbitrage can relate to our own life.. and its so cool.. being a paper market trader.. if u noe wad i mean.. haha..

after work.. chiong straight to school.. meet my club pple.. and we went to SP Superstars Muscial.. it was EXCELLENT.. thumbs up.. for the many efforts they put in.. it seems professional.. the singing.. dancing.. coordinating.. live band.. so much better than my low expectations.. worth the watch.. and looking forward to next yr muscial if there is.. and the songs are very very nice too.. enjoyed the show!

after musical.. went to find gin and jasmin.. met them at dover.. then went to daybed bar.. rain working there.. and i really like the concept of the bar.. the pizza is superb.. the base.. wow. the music is good.. the place is nice.. the atmosphere.. it juz feel so good there til u dowanna leave.. really.. but expenses are high when u spend ur night outside til so late.. haha.. after tt went jasmin house to stay and i am back home now!

i think i have found a direction in attachment.. where i am going to head and accomplish.. and i think i also found the direction in life.. in the future.. wad i hope to be.. still many uncertainties.. but as time pass.. it will become clearer.. and it will change..

sometimes.. i am juz out of my mind.. i say things and do things without thinking of other pple's feelings and consequences.. i was selfish to think of myself only.. i tot i am the only one who had suffer but i did not spare a tot for others.. and after everything.. i tot of the things my frens said me.. and i think i disappoint them.. and myself again.. sorry and thank you seems useless when it is overused..

a new man will not be born.. he will also be him.. and he will not say.. he will start all over again.. he will move in a diff direction in where he had stopped.. because he realise something was wrong when he stop.. no point turning back.. no point restarting.. history is a guide to the future.. just a guide..

:)

happy birthday peixin!

veggied on 12:12:00 PM

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

wanted to blog yesterday but the entry juz didnt go through.. hmm.. work.. so far so good.. i manage to complete all the things in the morning.. and afternoon was left with compling the news.. so i shall slowly do so tt i will be occupied throughout the day.. haha..

went to school straight after work.. they got capt ball friendly match and they inculde me to play.. i can at least be the catcher ma.. but in the end.. after their game.. played basketball in pants and shirt.. it feel so.. uneasy.. dribbling.. shooting.. jumping ard.. everything juz feel so weird.. and it has been a long long time since i played basketball.. and its still fun.. =))

finally.. i got to see the pple i really miss.. those tt i have not seen for months i think.. the noisy aminah! and the small rain!! two shorties.. and joycelyn came too.. for mooncake.. she is such a.. pig.. but she has nice arms la.. and cute teammates.. haha..

had been trying to save money recently.. and i tot oct.. none of my classmate bday so no need go out celebrate or buy presents.. but no.. oct also got a lot of pple bday.. and my money keep flying out.. here it goes..

5th - dad
7th - peixin 18th
8th - grandma
9th - charlene 21st
15th - melody 21st

can they spare me from buying presents.. birthday kiss for them will do.. haha..

not forgetting today is also yuwen bday.. and michelle's on the 10th.. =))

i love school la.. =))

veggied on 10:22:00 PM

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

hmm.. handed up my assignment to kris.. and i hope all my effort and my analysis is not wrong.. and hope i will have more chance to learn more things.. went marina sq a while after work and saw cs and rachel..

sometimes. you noe things will turn out this way.. so u didnt bother to ask again or work for it.. then things really go that way.. but nv u noe.. if u ask.. or u work a lil harder.. it juz turn out to be something better..

veggied on 10:08:00 PM

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

didnt have to blog at home cos after work.. tired and my internet at home not very good.. somemore now laptop not wif me..

work has been rather busy as usual.. and i am done wif my assignment.. dunno if it will be up to Kris expectation when she come back from the conference.. haha.. met sy on thur for dinner at sakae.. then fri meet jenn and ralph and jiahui.. and xy came ltr.. haa.. sat was back to club for meetings.. hmm.. felt so.. hmm.. unimpt? anymore.. haha.. doesnt matter.. no point forcing anything.. its alright.. haha..

if u guys took NEL often or wad.. while waiting for train.. u may saw the screen wif the prevent terrorists attack video clip.. one is wif the public not attentive and the other is wif them attentive and the bomb attack prevented.. haha.. to me.. it is quite crap.. they say... if u notice anyone wif bulky items.. take more notice of them.. if they behave abnormally.. take a closer notice of them and the bulk belonging.. and remind them if they "forget" to take the bulky belonging.. hmm.. so i pity u if u carry a big bag out.. many pple are watching u.. and the video makes the bomber and the sporean looks so stupid.. haha.. firstly for the terrorists.. when he attempted to bomb.. b4 he reach the other station.. he alr walk off and pple cfm will take note tt he forgot his item.. he shuld leave when he reach the other station and when the door is abt to close.. no one can stop him easily or wad.. and he shuld not choose those place like expo mrt station when there are not a lot of pple.. but maybe there is not a lot of pple then they can film there.. haha.. another thing is when they are reporting to the mrt personnel over the emergency call.. haha.. i think by the time they inform finish.. the bomb had exploded.. if the terrorist is clever enuff.. haha.. and to me.. there is no point describing the object.. but describe the person more impt.. but why he stupid enuff to bomb when there is not a lot of pple.. haha.. but good effort by the govt.. i will suggest them to teach us in case of a lot of pple.. wad shuld we do.. cos i dunno wad to do.. die then die lo.. haha..

veggied on 3:10:00 PM

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